For most of my life, if something was wrong I thought about it. Work out why, trace it back, work out where it's going. Then you're safe. Twenty-six years of assess before you act, and before that I was probably like that anyway. I got good at it. Never once stopped my chest going tight. That took me years to admit. I could explain what was happening while it was happening. Both things running at the same time, and the explaining wasn't in charge of anything. And this is the