It's three in the morning and you're awake again. Not frightened exactly. Just wide open. The experience finished days ago and something in you hasn't landed yet. You keep going back over it. You want to know what it meant, and the wanting has a kind of pressure behind it, like there's a deadline you've already missed. I know that pressure. It isn't only a psychedelic thing. I came home from active duty into a body that hadn't caught up with where it was, and I spent a long t